i wish

i wish i had somebody telling me how much they loved me over and over over again on repeat, with waves of reassurance and acceptance and love..i wish i had a person who was like the dragon from the anne mccaffrey books.
somebody who would universally love me and adore me and want to be with me and reassure me whenever i felt sad.
oh man, i wish i had that. chanting into my soul.
i wish i had that.



while i'm dreaming.. i want both my family (son, husband, mom) and I to live to be over 150 years, or 300 years, or 3000 years or 5000 years or 10,000 years old or longer, both healthy and happy and functional, with my conscious mind in tact and sane in wellbeing


and can i win the mega-lottery and be wealthy enough throughout to help the world and have a personal chef who would inspire me in teh kitchen and a gardener who would do my designs, and a personal chauffuer. and a personal secretary/researcher, computer person, and two other personal employees who would help me do all my ideas to help the world.